I used to dream so much about this. Now I have it, and I’m aware of it. I feel something so strong, so deep, that it can’t be put into words, but I’m 100% sure it’s exactly how I want to feel always. I want to enjoy all of my facets without any pressure. The first few months after Elena was born, I felt like I was “behind,” like I wasn’t being productive, and a part of me, even though I was fully enjoying my baby, felt like I should be creating new work, working more on the w